Diary of a PARANOIA Deliverance – Cathi Nowlen

From young adulthood I have been beset with various FEAR spirits. After I was saved, some of them seemed to go away, but any departure from my normal routine would bring strange and unsuspected fears to the surface.

Being baptized in the Holy Spirit seemed to intensify the struggle. After learning about the ministry of deliverance I received much deliverance from specific fear spirits and also learned to do self-deliverance. But there always seemed to be more spirits to take the place of the ones that had been expelled.

(8-20-07) Yesterday, we visited the aquarium and specifically the giant octopus exhibit.

Then we talked about my mother’s strange fears and I felt led to break the curse of paranoia. ( In the spirit I had seen “Paranoia” in my mind. It was colored gray…I assume the gray was for death )

As I prayed in the spirit and reinforced my spiritual armor…my sword was in my hand, I saw in the spirit a giant octopus which had been poked with a spear. It came roaring out of the cleft of an underground cave where it had been hiding.

It attached itself to the glass – just like in the aquarium exhibit – by its many suction cups. In this position it’s huge belly was exposed. I took my spear and stabbed it 3 times. Each time I withdrew the spear, much blood gushed out. I understood this to be the heart and root of paranoia … PS: I did not see the octopus die, so I do not know if anything else needs to be done.

The particular octopus we saw at the aquarium was nearing the end of his life we were told. He was not eating anymore and was going to be released back into his natural environment to die soon.

ISA 25:1 “O Lord, You are my God; I will exalt You, I will give thanks to Your name; for you have worked wonders, Plans formed long ago, with perfect faithfulness”

Today is raining, so we will rest. Tomorrow we are to go up the mountain ( Mt. Rainier )

ISA 25:6 “The Lord of hosts will prepare a lavish banquet for all peoples on this mountain” (vs 10) “…for the hand of the Lord will rest on this mountain”

(8-21-07) This a.m., as I was expelling specific fear spirits, I again saw in the spirit the octopus. He was pressed against the glass, and as each spirit was expelled, a suction cup would loosen it’s grip upon the glass.

(8-22-07) A few minutes into the tour, as the ascent to the mountain began, I again saw the octopus in the spirit. His huge belly was sunken in on one side and wrinkled up and all the arms on one side had pulled away from the glass and the suction cups were limp and shriveling up. He was leaning/tilting over on one side.

(8-23-07) ISA 26:12-14 “Lord, You will establish peace for us, since You have also performed for us all our works. O Lord, our God, other masters besides You have ruled us; But through You alone we confess Your name. The dead will not live, the departed spirits will not rise. Therefore You have punished and destroyed them, You have wiped out any remembrance of them”

As the tour began our guide said – “I will be your guide and I will provide everything you need. Our destination is “PARADISE” – 5400 feet and the highest point the public can ascend.

Cloud cover over the mountain, which cleared from time to time.

ISA 25:7 “And on this mountain He will swallow up the covering which is over all peoples, even the veil which is stretched over all nations” ( see vs 8-10 ) … “for the hand of the Lord will rest on this mountain”… see JOSHUA 1

(8-24-07) In the spirit I saw several large suction cups stuck to the glass. There was a large, very sharp sword poking around the suction cups and loosening them one by one. As they were loosened, they shriveled and pulled away from the glass.

Then I saw a flat rock ledge, a resting place, on the top of the mountain with a person sitting down, resting. I knew I was that person and had reached a plateau, a resting place on the mountain.

At that moment, the “Squirrelly”, queasy feeling in my belly went away and my belly felt quiet and calm.

(8-26-07) The morning after arriving back home… ISA 27:1 “In that day the Lord will punish Leviathan the fleeing serpent, with His fierce and great and mighty sword, even Leviathan the twisted serpent; and He will kill the dragon who lives in the sea”