Deliverance from Abandonment … Faith B.

There had always been a vague sense of insecurity and unease in me, which was greatly increased, in new and unfamiliar situations.

Following a large move to a new location, leaving our home of many years and beginning to settle into a completely different environment caused these uncomfortable feelings to greatly increase.

One night I awoke in the middle of the night with feelings of terror that I couldn’t explain. They were real nevertheless and nothing I thought of or prayed seemed to get rid of them. In fact, they increased until I was in a near panic.

The pressure mounted until I could handle it no longer by myself: I grabbed my bathrobe and ran to the home of a nearby sister-in-the-Lord and pounded on the door. Thank God, she understood deliverance and also what was happening to me. I, too, knew the issues were demonic, but was panicky by then and unable to deal with them by myself. She ministered to me and I was delivered of some spirits and finally calmed down enough to regain a measure of peace and return to sleep.

To back up a bit, at the time of the greatest fear/panic I saw something in the spirit that was both revealing and frightening: I saw a newborn baby lying on a large bed. The baby was crying and crying and nobody would come to comfort the baby. I knew in an instant that the distraught baby was me! … I had seen in vision what had caused the fearful, unsettling emotions that had been attacking me.

Now, although feeling somewhat calmer, I felt that the roots of the problem were still there and would be dealt with at another time of the Lord’s choosing.

About two and a half years have passed, with my being able to receive steady, sometimes quite deep deliverance. There came a time, when due to some needed repairs, I was settled temporarily in another new location. The old, familiar unease, fear, then panic returned, followed by insomnia. It became a miserable cycle, although doing spiritual warfare and clinging to trusted scriptures brought temporary relief in some measure for a few days. Finally, there came a night when nothing helped and I knew there was something inside me that was not going to go away until it was cast out. At the time of my greatest panic/torment I again saw the vision of the baby on the bed.

I called for a minister and a female friend and after binding and rebuking the spirit of abandonment and commanding it to leave in the name of Jesus, it left with much protest and screaming. The minister saw a large brown rope, in the spirit, wrapped around my neck, picturing how the demonic spirit was trying to choke me off from the full, free life the Lord wanted me to have in Him. The rope was cut through ministry, in the spirit, was removed and I was free.

Praise God for the ministry of deliverance!